n dn understand urself yet.." maybe he is right i never understand myself how surposing i know how to express my feeling & thought? To everyone, when i trying to explain no matter how hard i do i still get the different result. I hope one day all abondan me throw me aside so that i wont expose to you guys then there will not have anything that need me to talk about... I started to hate explaination, i just want to be isolated, dont treat me as some one like you guys, pretend dont even know me. As long i know more & i cant do anything then it will when into a sick condition. I hope walk back my own path, go wherever i like, alone & learn all the thing by myself. I want a job that no need any contact with anyone.In front of everyone i can pretend & be like a normal person but inside me many things running through more than other know about me, but all of it are very blur & i dont know what going on. guess have psychological problem, now everything that i dont want to happen has opposed me, more & more stuff stuck in my head trying to solve one by one, but none of it comes with a solution. Since i dont understand myself how you guys gonna understand me? I wont blame anyone i only will blame me alone. Understand myself & only know what to do next.
